Do you know that in this exact moment, there is someone out there who would trade places with you? Did you know that they consider you successful, happy and very fortunate just for having a meal every day, clean water every day?

I had a moment of realization when I fell into one of those infinite loops of despair today: I was feeling lonely, mostly I was feeling emotionally distant from my husband. He’s been apathetic about managing employees and dealing with too many people at once. At this point, I realized that we all have that impossible mountain to climb, we look up to the snow and our hope and faith dwindles as we see it stretching forever. We despair,  we feel overwhelmed, lost.

It’s easy to lose hope, but getting to the mountain top should not be your purpose in life.

Why should you change? Why should I change? Well, what you are currently doing is NOT working for you, is it? The only way out left of your despair is to either run away or change your attitude. Look at the problem from a different angle because you and I, we’re not quitters. We don’t run away, do we?

Why should I change? Why can’t my husband change? Well, waiting for someone to change won’t really yield you any more results than pure frustration. 

Therefore, the only real way to move forward is to change. What should you change? What should I change?

I don’t know! But I know that following every instinct that I have so far has been wrong. Perhaps my instinct is wrong, perhaps I need to change my whole personality and not trust myself because… Where has that got me? Tired, unhappy, miserable… And I should feel fine, because I have everything I wanted/everything I can have… A loving happy family, a supportive husband, a business that support my expenses, and stability in my home. We all have debt, but why lose sleep over it?

Perhaps what I am looking for is more… More peace, more freedom, more time with my family, less stress. Don’t we all?

It’s easy to get lost in the routine of your life and never see beyond that long hike up that infinite mountain. Perhaps, though, every now and then it is time to stop, look up and down and celebrate how far you’ve come. 

Celebrate all the small and big things in your life: be thankful. 

Why should I change? There is only so much time left in our lives to waste it feeling miserable. I’m going back to the drawing board and redrafting my plan for what I think is a good route to hike up the mountain. After all, when I get to the end, I’ll just be dead. Might as well enjoy the scenery, snowy as it might get.

You never know if the most terrying, impossible moment in your life can turn out to be this wonderful view that you will thank for later.

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